Way Late Thoughtful Thursday

all day long just takin it easy,
layin in a hammock where its nice and breezy
and sleepin off the night before,
Cuz when the sun goes down we'll be back for more

Song of the Day: When the Sun Goes Down by Kenny Chesney
Current Mood: wanting to be at the beach. Is that a mood?

Thoughts of the day...


~ It is so frustrating to have my mind right now. I mean, only two months ago I was so excited to determine my path for education and career was to be a Middle School Teacher. As much as I hate to abandon that path, it just doesn't seem feasible. Because I already have a bachelor's degree, I was excited to learn I could go back, take a few classes in my chosen area, and move on to get my Masters in Ed. But of course, it could not be that simple. I must take about 19 credits in Gen Ed courses, since I got my bachelors elsewhere. Then, I must take 15 credits of upper level English courses. All this would be prior to admission into the teaching program. Please forgive me, but I'm not interested in putting that much more time into my education while working full time and being the breadwinner of the family with Steven in school. This awakening lead me back to square one. I have a dream of opening my own book store in Savannah, but that's a big dream, so it's kinda scary. i don't really know what to do to head down that path, so I'm slightly apprehensive about moving forward on that. I guess at this point I'm just happy to have a goal at all...

I've got to find a way to lose some weight, because I'm getting pretty upset about it. I lost 20 pounds for the wedding, but then I gained it right back. I dont do well with diets and it's hard to stick with exercising when it is not convenient or fun. But i am really wanting to lose 50 pounds and keep it off, without starving myself. I cant eat next to nothing, because regardless of how much weight i lose I cant stick with it- I cant stand being hungry. I've tried Curves, Weight Watchers (which worked so well!), and Zumba. But weight watchers focuses on what you eat, and I just cant much do that for long. I dunno. I'd like to be more active. But I'm so not motivated. :( I need someone to join me...

I've been trying to relax a bit this week, in that I'm trying to not get so upset about stuff. I think I've been doing well. I have a tendency to get uptight and pissed about things that I shouldn't really be upset about, and it stresses me out and makes me a tad un-enjoyable to be around. I'm going to try to keep it up. I feel a whole lot better than I did before- so that is nice! But I'm still not motivated to do things like clean my house and all that.

Baby steps, right?

What are your thoughts today?