Mind Right Monday

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, that's how you'll stay
That's why, darling, it's incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too

Song of the day: Unforgettable by Nat King Cole
Thoughts for the day: attempting to think positive and not bring my self down. i dont need help thinking negative things, i need help with positive thoughts and actions. i'm tired of struggling every day to not get worked up over little things. I need to learn how to relax.





It's time again for Mind Right Monday!

Goals:
~Try to make it 4 days being positive, or maybe just less negative
~Plan a trip for Christmas vacation
~re-decide what the next steps to take are (more school? another job? a second job? etc)
~Make a list of 30 things that make me happy, begin logging them on this blog
~Blog even just a little every day this week.
~Make a new friend... some how...

Gratefuls:
~a fantabulous husband who wants me to be happy
~the best mom I could ask for
~the little afternoon thunderstorms we've been having
~a working A/C

Thoughtful Thursday- Where my head's at today.

she says we've got to hold on to what we've got
It doesn't make a difference if we make it or not
We got each other and that's a lot
For love we'll give it a shot

Song of the day: Livin' on a Prayer - Bon Jovi
Current Mood: emotional

Thoughts of the day:

* I just watched Love Story, which is most definitely one of the saddest movies I have ever seen. If you havent seen it, you should, if you are in to total tear jerker movies about true love. I'm not going to spoil it or any thing, but it sure was a good one. It really made me think about life and how fragile it is. how important it is to hang on to every moment. It is so important to cherish the ones you love every day. And I love my husband so much I feel my heart could burst some times. I just wish i could really show him that.

* I started and finished Burned by Ellen Hopkins. If you have never read any thing by her, you should. Her writing style is so different than every one else's. She writes some serious subjects and this book is about a Mormon teenager who struggles with finding love- not just romantic love, but family love as well. It's so heavy, it really made me think about how lucky i am to have the amazing family that I do. And it also reminded me that you never know someone elses situation until you've actually seen where they come from. You have to watch the things you say to other people, and how you treat them. It makes me sad, my heart goes out to anyone who has a family life like Pattyn in this book. Which, as a side note, is a very nice girl name.

*Also watched Fried Green Tomatoes, yet another movie that makes me think about life. I'm thinking about how frustrated I am with my life and frustrated at myself for not being able to figure it all out, but sometimes you really just need someone by your side, a friend to talk to, just a companion. I know I can find my way out of this mess, I just cant give up. i've got to keep trying. And I'm lucky enough to have the best husband possible to help me find out where I need to go next.


I think those are enough thoughts for today.

What are you thinking of today?

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Another Monday is upon us....
So, My Goals for the week are:
*call to set up an audition
*Dont get carried away eating
*Finish Emma
*Work on my show for Sunday
*dont eat out/spend money

Things I'm Grateful For:
*the husband
*family
*friends
*the rain we are finally getting
*a stable job
*good books

This week I also will participate in Follow Us Monday from Frugality is Free

The question of the week is:
How did you get started with blogging?

for me it was just a natural progression. I've always been a journal writer, but now that I'm working most of my day, and on a computer, this is a great way to get my thoughts and life experiences down fairly instantly. I can sort through them in my blogs, as opposed to just in my head, and that really helps.

If you are interested in participating in Follow us Monday, check this weeks blog out here.

"I wanted to be anyone else.. Only to find that there was no one there but me..."3 Doors Down- The Real Life

I've been an incredible slacker lately with the bloggage. I apologize. I suppose I shall now introduce you to the darker side of me. Let's call her hizzle. Because that nickname just sounds suitable.

Some days, the days when hizzle takes over, I'm relatively uninterested in everything around me. I have no motivation to do everyday things like cook supper, straighten my home, exercise, eat right, and even wake up. She causes me to not care about furthering my education, or even maintaining a professional image at work. This, of course, includes blogging.

How long this phase lasts varies every time it happens. Sometimes it only lasts a day, sometimes it lasts a month. You can only imagine what the condition of my home (not to mention the relationship with my husband) is after that long period of neglect.

I distance myself from others. I have not met too many people I can trust, and the "friends" I thought I had end up leaving me at one point or another. I suppose they give up or lose faith in me. I just want to find someone who doesn't run, who takes the time to get to know me and someone who loves me. I've got Steven, but girls need friends.

Thats part of why I have started seeing a therapist. I have some anger issues also that I would like to resolve, and some unspeakable demons in my mind that I must be rid of.

But everyone has these issues right? Surely not everyone is happy all the time.. and others struggle to fight the darkness in the depths of their mind? Please tell me it's not just me!

~Mind Right Monday~ "...Dance all night, despite the heat it'll be alright" Lovin' Spoonful- Summer in the City

I have taken a bit longer on blogging than I meant to! But I'm back in full swing now I hope.
I dont know how hot you all have been but here it has been so hot and humid! I spent all weekend at the pool. It was quite enjoyable.

Today is Day 1 of a health plan I've decided to undertake on my own. Basically I'm cutting out everything except fresh fruit and veggies, and some healthy organic chicken and some tolerable fish, for three weeks. Then, I will start adding things back in, and see how my body receives it. Some foods seriously make me feel like crap, and I would like to see if I can pinpoint any of these things, and get my health back on track by eating better foods. I'm also definitely taking multi-vitamins to make sure I'm getting everything I need.
I can do anything for 21 days right? Here's hoping. Wish me luck...

Ok so on to Mind Right Monday brought to you through me via Dani at OK, Dan.


Goals for the week...
**Stick with this health plan thing I've got going on
**Do great at my lia sophia show tomorrow
**Clean out my closet
**Get ready for the yard sale to rid myself of all things unnecessary
**Save mucho money from these checks for the trip in September
**Finish Earth Abides
**Start the next book in the stack
**Get a pedi with mom

Grateful for...
*my family
*pools and lakes
*great friends
*summer days and nights filled with fun and laughter
*my car <3
*Geoffrey and Patricia who I will miss very much now that they have moved :(

Ongoing Challenges
~Spending money only on bills, groceries, and gas.
~Get rid of 50 things (25 down- but I'm not stopping at 50)
~Work on my 101ish in 1001 (7 down, 9 in progress, 88 to go!){you can check out my progress here!}
~150 books in 2010 (working on 3!)

Let's get this week rolling!